Hey 2016

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Well its here, a new year, a new you. That is what the new year is all about, right? Making a handful of ridiculously drastic resolutions to make yourself a better person, only to break them all within the first month? Well if you’re looking for a bunch of crazy resolutions like I will go to the gym 5 days a week, give up sugar and put away the laundry every day, you can leave now, because thats not happening. What I am sharing with you today is the emotional struggle I’ve been going through the last little bit.

2016 hasn’t exactly started off on the right foot for me, to be honest 2015 didn’t end all that great either. It’s been a struggle, a real struggle. I have ended up in tears at least once a day, every day so far. I’ve been struggling with anxiety for a while now. It’s a mixture of everything. It’s motherhood, it’s relationships, it’s hormonal changes, its friendships and it’s even this blog. I’ve been trying my best lately to not sweat the small stuff but it’s gotten tough and on some days I’ve just wanted to curl up in a ball and wish everything away. It sucks. So if your wondering why there hasn’t been any posts in the last few weeks, this is why. Over the last few months I’ve seen some of my work copied, I’ve been cut down and called out for the littlest things and most of all I’ve seen a lot of selfishness. All of this in a community where I thought we were supporting each other. So to say the least, I’ve lost my drive. I’m working on getting myself back in a better place to keep on going. I’ve started distancing myself from those I feel negatively impact me and surrounding myself with positive influences.

I’m looking forward to getting over this hurdle and getting on with 2016. I’ve got a lot to look forward to this year.

I have my babes, they are my world and I don’t know where I would be without them. Watching them both grow and learn is just the craziest miracle.

I have my lump. Ten years invested with him and I wouldn’t change a thing <3

I turn 30 this year  month. A small milestone that some fear but really isn’t all so bad, or so my sister in law  keeps telling me.

I have my family and friends that keep me sane and fuelled with coffee and wine. Honestly without them I’m not sure what I would do.

Lastly, I have this blog, my creative outlet. I have met and continue to meet so many amazing people through this blogging world. The support that I have been given by some of these people, some who have turned into great friends, its amazing. This year I will continue to focus on things that really stick with me on a personal level. I am following the golden rule of quality over quantity. So you may see fewer posts over the long run, but I promise it will be worth it. I have been fairly choosy with what I’ve posted over the last few months and I am going to be even more so going forward. I will not share something with you guys just to get paid, thats not what I’m about. I promise to be as real as I can with you, I don’t have a white kitchen and I don’t have marble counters. While they are appealing in pictures, you will not see me giving you the illusion of something I don’t have. It may appear that the pictures on the blog, Instagram and Facebook are staged and edited, I want you all to remember not everything is as it seems, (remember that Christmas picture of E sitting?!) Pictures are posted to catch ones eye, to take them away to a place thats without worry and filled with rainbows and unicorns. If you want the nitty gritty, the laundry piled to the ceiling, the toddler with the dirty face, I’ve got it all, follow along on snapchat (@mrsmilliard). Lastly, I love hearing from you, comment! If you like a post, let me know. If you don’t like it, let me know, and let me know why, I want to hear the good, the bad and the ugly. You want to say hi, you want to collaborate on something, send me an email.  I’ve got lots of great ideas and I can’t wait to share them with you all, I just need to find some time. Between the kids, the laundry and this anxiety battle I’m a little tied up at the moment so just bare with me for a bit.

Xo. Andria

 

27 thoughts on “Hey 2016

  • January 7, 2016 at 8:50 am
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    ❤️❤️❤️ thank you for sharing such a personal post. It reminds us that you (and all of us) are real human beings with real emotions, and that we all struggle sometimes but we won’t give up. ?

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    • January 13, 2016 at 9:49 pm
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      Love you friend!XOXO

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  • January 7, 2016 at 9:07 am
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    I’d like to write you a real letter instead of just a comment.
    Just breathe. Sometimes life is like that, just plain hard and not for any particular one reason either. I like to think of myself as a rational, common sense person, but I have cried more in the past 2 months than I have in a year.

    I read this before Christmas and it helped me put things back into perspective. I don’t know if I’m allowed to share links or if they’ll get marked as spam, but here: http://www.girltalkhome.com/blog/christmas-expectations-and-emotions/
    And hugs.

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    • January 13, 2016 at 9:49 pm
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      Thanks for sharing the link and yes sometimes all we need is to just breathe and slow down!

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  • January 7, 2016 at 9:08 am
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    You go girl! We just have to be the best for ourselves first!
    I had post partum anxiety with #3. It finally cleared around the 6 month mark. She’s 9 month now. If you look at my blog you will see I hardly did blog during that period. Had to take care of #1, which is me. Without me my 3 littles can’t thrive and survive!

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    • January 13, 2016 at 9:48 pm
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      Thanks Andrea! I have still yet to pinpoint what it is exactly, whether its post partum or other stress / anxiety or a mixture but I’m working on it and taking it just one day at a time 🙂

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  • January 7, 2016 at 9:21 am
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    I just want to let you know I enjoy stalking, I mean following you. Hahaha. I see your insta, fb and even snap chat. As a mom of two, your real ness and honesty is appreciated. I just thought you should know what you are sharing with the world is valued. I hope you feel better soon!

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    • January 13, 2016 at 9:47 pm
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      Thanks Candice! I appreciate you following along on our daily craziness!

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    • January 13, 2016 at 9:46 pm
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      Xo!

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  • January 7, 2016 at 9:52 am
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    I’m so sorry friend, I wish I had the perfect formulation to avoid this all, I would share it with you. Take one day at a time and reach out whenever you need a hand. I’M HERE!

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    • January 13, 2016 at 9:46 pm
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      Thanks for all your support and blog guidance friend!

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  • January 7, 2016 at 11:14 am
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    So sorry to hear you’ve been having anxiety lately. I was actually thinking about writing a post about the prevalence of anxiety in ourselves and our children.

    Thanks for being so honest & brave with your words. I’m sure many of us can relate, especially other bloggers.

    Ps. Love the snaps! Xx ❤️

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    • January 13, 2016 at 9:45 pm
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      Thanks for all your support Jamie! We need to do coffee one day, I would love to sit and chat with you! Xo

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  • January 7, 2016 at 12:44 pm
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    You don’t deserve the bumps you’ve faced. Hormones and postpartum anxiety aren’t easy. Especially with a lack of sleep. Your blog is beautiful. Don’t let go of something you love and gives you fulfilment. Hopefully, the intellectual property thieves will fade away or get a good dose of Karma. What a brave, well-written post Andria!

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    • January 13, 2016 at 9:44 pm
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      Thanks so much Alana, all your support really means a lot. So glad that we were able to reconnect from our Cactus days over our blogs 🙂

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  • January 7, 2016 at 3:56 pm
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    It’s a tough going but you seem to know exactly what to do so that things are good for you and your family! I totally agree about quality and authenticity, it’s too important! Happy New YEar!

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    • January 13, 2016 at 9:43 pm
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      Thanks Salma! Its so appreciated from someone like you who’s been in the “game” for awhile and is so good at it!

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  • January 7, 2016 at 8:20 pm
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    Thanks so much for sharing momma! You’re doing an amazing job and I love all your posts ❤️❤️ 2 kiddos is a game changer and its so great to have the support of all the other moms out there! I’m pretty sure I didn’t shower for three days last week and brushed my teeth with an index finger and some paste. Livin the dream ? keep at it girlie! Sending good vibes for 2016

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    • January 13, 2016 at 9:42 pm
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      Thanks for all your support Danielle, so glad to have “met” you! We will have to connect in person this year! Xo

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  • January 8, 2016 at 8:45 am
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    Love following your blog and even more your instagram. I feel like so much of your life is mine and so many others. You keep it real, authentic and true.
    I think our daughters were born on the same day! I believe your Hurricane Hazel and my Piper girl are two of the most spirited, sweet, funny girls! 2.5 is just awesome, and you do it all with 2! Incredible. Keep up the posts, the love, the honesty. xo @heymrswalsh

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    • January 13, 2016 at 9:41 pm
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      Hi Christina, too funny they are both born the same day! I am sure they have the same free spirit 🙂 Thank you for following and your support! Xo.

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  • January 8, 2016 at 9:43 am
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    You’re not the first blogger I have seen step back because of negativity. Another mom I followed did the same and is working on rebuilding herself to be open again. As a reader, I hate to see people I love to follow step back but as a mom I GET it. Parenting is HARD as it is, without being in the eye of public. Love what you do, do what you love xo.

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    • January 13, 2016 at 9:40 pm
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      Thanks for reading and your support Crystal. Its hard to be open and share when people are judging your every little move, but the blog is such a great outlet to release stress 🙂

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  • January 8, 2016 at 5:17 pm
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    You’re so brave to be so open about this time in your life , I’ve been through similar things but didn’t really talk about it . You inspire me Andria xoxo

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    • January 13, 2016 at 9:39 pm
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      Thanks Sam! xoxo

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