This post was originally published over on Mama in the City’s site in support of World Breastfeeding week. You can read the original here. I wanted to publish it here as well, as a way of remembering, documenting the way I currently feel about my post baby body, most importantly, my post baby breasts. If you’re a nursing mom you know what it feels like, the changes your body and breasts go through. I think its important for us to take a second and remember that they are still perfect, no matter the journey they’ve been on.
When Andrea (yes we have the same name!!) reached out to me and asked if I would write a piece for her site there was no hesitation. I have been following along Andrea’s site for forever, long before I really got into this blogging thing. She often shares her tips and tricks on city living. I still haven’t managed to wrap my head around how the 5 of them live in a 1200 sq ft apartment downtown but yes, it is doable! When she isn’t busy wrangling kids or blogging she spends her days (and nights) as a nurse delivering babies. How could you not love her?
A letter to my pre baby self
Dear Pre Baby Self,
Tonight when you get out of the shower I want you to stop and take a look at yourself in the mirror. Take a look at your body, your stomach, your thighs and most importantly your breasts. Stand there for a minute, take it all in, absorb the way your body looks and cherish it like the sacred temple it is.
Now tomorrow when you wake up take the bras from your drawer and burn them. You know the ones that you have in eight different colours that make your breasts look the way you think they are meant to look. Perfectly round and just the right amount of oomph. Yes, you heard me, take them and burn them. Go buy yourself something that is comfortable and fits you better, just trust me on this.
These breasts that you think are meant to look perfectly round and with just the right amount of oomph are going to mean so much more to you in a few years. Yes ,they will grow and probably leave you with stretch marks but they are going to do remarkable things. They will allow you to nourish not one but two beautiful babies. One of those babies will self wean around nine months and the other will not want to stop and you will go on to extended breastfeeding, something you had never even knew existed.
These breasts that you feel you need to make perfect are already perfect and your babies will sense this from the moment they are born. They will instantly snuggle up to you and recognize this as a safe place. A place they go to when they need nourishment and comforting.
While breastfeeding may seem a little painful at first you will both get the hang of it and in no time you will have a routine. You will spend many hours trapped to your bed with a baby snuggled against you. Enjoy it. Embrace it. And most importantly bring snacks with you. These minutes, hours, days that you spend snuggling and nursing you babies is oh so important. The bond that you are creating is everlasting and before you know it they will no longer depend on you.
All I can say to you is to stop worrying about whether or not your breasts are perfect, because they are. One day when you’re a little older and possibly a little wiser, you’re going to look back at yourself and laugh. Laugh at all the times you stressed about the way you looked. So stop it, stop it now.
Embrace your body, your breasts, for what they are and just know that one day, yes they will be a few sizes bigger, but most importantly they are going to be amazing and have the power to nourish others.
Your slightly older and wiser self,
PS be sure to read my 5 Must Haves for the Breastfeeding Mom.