Well its here, a new year, a new you. That is what the new year is all about, right? Making a handful of ridiculously drastic resolutions to make yourself a better person, only to break them all within the first month? Well if you’re looking for a bunch of crazy resolutions like I will go to the gym 5 days a week, give up sugar and put away the laundry every day, you can leave now, because thats not happening. What I am sharing with you today is the emotional struggle I’ve been going through the last little bit.
2016 hasn’t exactly started off on the right foot for me, to be honest 2015 didn’t end all that great either. It’s been a struggle, a real struggle. I have ended up in tears at least once a day, every day so far. I’ve been struggling with anxiety for a while now. It’s a mixture of everything. It’s motherhood, it’s relationships, it’s hormonal changes, its friendships and it’s even this blog. I’ve been trying my best lately to not sweat the small stuff but it’s gotten tough and on some days I’ve just wanted to curl up in a ball and wish everything away. It sucks. So if your wondering why there hasn’t been any posts in the last few weeks, this is why. Over the last few months I’ve seen some of my work copied, I’ve been cut down and called out for the littlest things and most of all I’ve seen a lot of selfishness. All of this in a community where I thought we were supporting each other. So to say the least, I’ve lost my drive. I’m working on getting myself back in a better place to keep on going. I’ve started distancing myself from those I feel negatively impact me and surrounding myself with positive influences.
I’m looking forward to getting over this hurdle and getting on with 2016. I’ve got a lot to look forward to this year.
I have my babes, they are my world and I don’t know where I would be without them. Watching them both grow and learn is just the craziest miracle.
I have my lump. Ten years invested with him and I wouldn’t change a thing <3
I turn 30 this
year month. A small milestone that some fear but really isn’t all so bad, or so my sister in law keeps telling me.
I have my family and friends that keep me sane and fuelled with coffee and wine. Honestly without them I’m not sure what I would do.
Lastly, I have this blog, my creative outlet. I have met and continue to meet so many amazing people through this blogging world. The support that I have been given by some of these people, some who have turned into great friends, its amazing. This year I will continue to focus on things that really stick with me on a personal level. I am following the golden rule of quality over quantity. So you may see fewer posts over the long run, but I promise it will be worth it. I have been fairly choosy with what I’ve posted over the last few months and I am going to be even more so going forward. I will not share something with you guys just to get paid, thats not what I’m about. I promise to be as real as I can with you, I don’t have a white kitchen and I don’t have marble counters. While they are appealing in pictures, you will not see me giving you the illusion of something I don’t have. It may appear that the pictures on the blog, Instagram and Facebook are staged and edited, I want you all to remember not everything is as it seems, (remember that Christmas picture of E sitting?!) Pictures are posted to catch ones eye, to take them away to a place thats without worry and filled with rainbows and unicorns. If you want the nitty gritty, the laundry piled to the ceiling, the toddler with the dirty face, I’ve got it all, follow along on snapchat (@mrsmilliard). Lastly, I love hearing from you, comment! If you like a post, let me know. If you don’t like it, let me know, and let me know why, I want to hear the good, the bad and the ugly. You want to say hi, you want to collaborate on something, send me an email. I’ve got lots of great ideas and I can’t wait to share them with you all, I just need to find some time. Between the kids, the laundry and this anxiety battle I’m a little tied up at the moment so just bare with me for a bit.